40??!!

Reality hit me this morning. It is official. I am getting old and my eye doctor confirmed that for me this morning. I was already not feeling great with these wonderful upstate allergies (reason enough to move) and seriously doped up on robitussin dm when my doctor began explaning how my eyes were changing. He said since I was getting close to 40 I would begin to notice a difference. Oh my gosh. As zombie like as I was I could not believe what he said. Getting close to 40. Getting close to 40. It was like those words just rang out over and over again in my head. I pleaded with him not to utter those words and he laughed. Glad he thought it was funny. I sure didn't. It seemed almost for a second that the cough syrup ran out of my body and I had this amazing energy (to run out the door) but I sat there and listened to him tell me how my eyes were changing and that I was slowly aging. The good news was that my prescription did not change much but going in I knew that it had because I was struggling to see things from a distance. As I sat there for the two hour process I decided to ask him about lasik surgery and once again, laughing this time, he said, "Well, since you are approaching 40 there is not much reason to consider it". ARGG! Needless to say I went home and crawled back into the bed and went to sleep. Almost 40. Dang, whatever happened to the last half of the 30's? Are they just lost with the wind?
I am convinced that I will not let 40 hit me hard but today the reality that it is closer than I would like to think is very real.